Mother,
what fortunes you held
you used to call me the devil's child
how accurate that was
Father,
you had your excuses
but I know you quietly agreed
I've never seen love in your eyes
and sister,
older blood by three years
but I wonder if you were like me
or if you never were
I can remember
a bully, a pest, a screw-up
I've always been
Every person I've met
wanted me out
And every chance been given
a failure
Even to the closest
I shared my all
tried and tried
then the smiles faded away
all that was left
was your tears and frowns
And now it's too late
I would give it my all to try again
but I've got to let it go
Let you,
everyone find a good life
without me involved
Perhaps I've been condemned since birth
Never the bravery to end it all
A walk ahead
in a path of pain
Nothing new I suppose.